Pre-Blog Warm up:
Just a heads up: I’ve learned a lot just by going through this on my own. My hopes with this blog is to be honest. To share my experience and what I’ve learned. Everything I say should be taken with a grain of salt. Every woman is different and so is every pregnancy. My pregnancy could be TOTALLY different from yours. I want to be honest with my experience in order to best help everyone else.
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I wanted to be a mom. Baby fever had hit me pretty hard. When I shared this with my husband, he was excited to be a dad, but as a business owner, also saw the extra challenges.
We both have heard there is no perfect time for children. With that being said; having kids isn’t like going out to pick a brand-new car. It’s a BIG, life changing decision. Your life will NEVER be the same. So, although we understand there is no ‘perfect’ time for children, obviously, we were going to wait until it was a more perfect time for us. With Will’s family business, we decided that the right timing for us would be shortly after the opening of it’s second location.
I still remember the lead up to finding out we were pregnant. It wasn’t like in the movies. Because we were trying, and because the at home pregnancy tests advertise ‘test 4 days before your expected period’ that’s exactly what I did. NEGATIVE. I got a big fat negative. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t disappointed. But then, I didn’t get my period. So, I tested again, and I had NO IDEA how to read it. The positive line was soooo faint, I didn’t know if my eyes were playing tricks on me. So I was pregnant or I wasn’t?!?!? Time to call the doctor. I remember her reading the urine test and saying ‘no, sorry hun, I don’t think you are’. I was so confused. Even though I hadn’t been confident with my faint line I FELT pregnant. Before I could really swallow what she had said, she goes, “oh wait, no you are pregnant”.
So that was that!!
At 6.5 weeks I had some major cramping. I called my doctor and she said she would get me in for an ultra sound. The lady showed me my little peanut on the screen (just ONE of them). She said the cramping was normal and that it most likely was just me feeling everything starting to stretch.
My second ultra sound was scheduled at 12 weeks. This was the first appointment my husband would be joining me, so I was super excited for it to feel a little more real for him. Little did we know how real that appointment was really going to be! The lady called me in and was taking pictures with the ultra sound, doing her thing, for 30 minutes before she said she was going to get my husband. I remember thinking that something was wrong, why was it taking so long? But, then again, if the baby wasn’t there, it also didn’t make sense the appointment was so long. So, I just laid there, patiently waiting.
Finally, the ultra sound technician comes in with my husband and tells him to stand by me lying down. She has the computer monitor facing only her and starts doing my ultra sound again. She then looks at us and says “So, I can’t explain what happened at your last ultra sound, but…” Immediately I go into panic mode and ask what’s wrong. “Nothing is wrong” she says, “But, (facing the computer monitor our way), your having twins”. I can’t even begin to describe that feeling. I remember kept saying ‘No, your joking, is this a joke” Finally my husband, (the calm one that he is) says ‘No, Brittney, I don’t think it’s a joke, I think were having twins.” I somehow managed to cry and laugh all at once. It was a feeling I will neither forget, nor be able to describe.
This past weekend, we just hit the 13-week mark, and about one week since we found out about the twins. The shock is starting to ware off and reality is sinking in. We’re so incredibly nervous, but we’re also so excited. We feel blessed, lucky, anxious and nervous for the journey ahead.
Thank you for joining me on my journey and as always, Id love to hear from you!!
CHEERS
XO
BAM